Thursday, August 18, 2005
havent updated here for quite awhile... still trying to get used to a whole lot of stuff... sharing a room, using a common (not-so-clean) toilet, laundry, printing my own notes, having to walk long distances (frm the south spine to the north spine) to diff LTs, checking the sch's webby frequently for announcements, not having the usual gang ard anymore n the list goes on.... i guess its kinda time for some real independence.... not like i (or anyone for tt matter) have a choice in this.... its either u try to adapt n survive or u wallow in self-pity, whining abt how u hate this new life/phase/environment or wateva u wanna call it n feel miserable abt ur life n everythng ard u..... i figured striving to survive sure beats submerging in a pool of depression... at least there's a chance u'll emerge victorious n becom a better (n changed) person if u choose the former.. not saying its easy... but i guess (n hope) the initial stage is the most difficult... it wld get better after awhile.. rite? sigh... i cant jus wish to stay stagnant n hold on tightly to those good old times... when its time to move on, move on. when its time to make new frens, make new frens. when its time to adapt to a new environment, adapt. guess tt's jus the way things are.... mayb its jus plain unwillingness to move out of my comfort zone... oh well... everyone else's gg thru the same thing.. i wonder if evryone else is feeling the same way....